“IT’S CALLED ‘CAPITALISM,’ KOVACH. IT PAYS YOUR SALARY.”

Maybe capitalism is the direction I need to head in. Dominating. Powerful. Rich.
[Editor's Note: I was about to type in 'Rick.' I suppose that someone named Rick could hold some very capitalist agenda. So it will remain.]
And Rick.
I've reached a step in my life (a plateau, if you will) that has taken me some time to surmount. I feel that I must abandon all and seek a life of newness, of difference beyond that which I see around me.
I want to be the opposite of the A-type capitalist.
I want to be poor.
Not just in the monetary sense of the word, but I want to be rid of this ungodly, fortunate feeling that surrounds me and everything I'm doing.
I'm disgusted by it.
And I am so unworthy of it.